藍水天：永遠的畫面

The Letter of Admission arrived this morning.

今年，真的很困難，每一步都如同行走在地獄一般的煎熬。“努力、忍耐、艱辛、苦修，還要克服絕望的煎熬，也未必能達到目標!”可是，二外法語非常勉強地、甚至可以說是奇蹟般地上了複試線後，複試和之後的過程卻十分順利，超乎預料的順利。還記得複試面試時，面對如同“審判員、審判員、審判長、審判員、審判員”的位置排開的五位教授，我是那樣平靜（或許甚至還帶有悲觀的心情）。

今年，三年前我們6班成為研究生的同學都全部畢業了：班長晏成了博士，Linda進了南京某研究所，V5姐去了重慶科技學院成了大學英文老師，Master 潘從英倫利茲大學學成歸國回渝後去了一公司，而趙委員去年就廣外畢業成為中學英文老師。今年，me included，我們6班又考起兩個英美文學碩士，一個翻譯碩士，加上班長晏的英語文學博士，真的是相當華麗。我不知道在這條路上能走多遠，能走多久，卻明白——“人和人是不同的。無論是基於怎樣的考慮，我們都應該明白，無論是始終低段的棋士，還是霸權在握的棋士，作為棋士的身份都是一樣的。光榮之道並不能夠代表人間大道。沒有得到命運惠顧的棋士，被遺忘的棋士，或是才薄的棋士，他們也都是真正的棋士。不錯，圍棋誠然是一個勝負的遊戲，但是我的話和這一點其實並不矛盾。因為勝負遊戲只是圍棋的外在，它的本質其實是文化，是道。 ”

Thank God. 感謝李笑來老師 ，感謝陳國輝老師 ，再一次地。

等了差不多一個月，昨天的最新一集，射手座終於被喚醒了：

今年的12月17日，我將26歲，適之先生120年誕辰。

裏面熊大縝同學的這張照片可真陽光 。

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Working as a clerk assistant in a court of law since last September.

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Thanks to Mr Li Xiaolai's blog, I have completed my own system or principles of English learning, which can be generally induced as 'accumulation'. And from his blog, I also learn some useful software and Internet techniques, which can also assistant my English learning.
　　On the other hand, Mr Chen Guohui's blog has given to me confidence and spiritual comfort both in life and academic studies.

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　　中國的基督終於遠去了，每一個受難者都應該將他的靈光深藏在心中，並讓這靈光蕩漾在我們的上空。我們也許可以沒有基督，但我們絕對不可以沒有博愛之心，不可以沒有慈悲和溫情，不可以沒有對於一切苦難的不妥協的反抗。——摩羅 《恥辱者手記》1998年 內蒙古出版社

　　希特勒带领自己的民族摆脱英法强权的扼制，这是值得敬佩的。——摩罗　2010年 接受《南都周刊》采访

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My host dictionary now.

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For the first time I've entered the second round of the graduate admission examianation, but have not acquited myself well and the result seems gloomy. However, even if I fail this time, the postgraduate era of my life has commenced....

For videos, on my playlist of Tudou.com. http://www.tudou.com/playlist/id8152906.html or http://www.tudou.com/l/8152906

不许笑不许笑。。。。Ok, you win....

From http://picasaweb.google.com/vinsonpang/jsViDI#5341617291382887970

    棋乃命運之藝。——幻庵因碩／藤澤秀行

    He was fated to be the One who was beaten by him.

    He is fated to be the One who beats him, isn't he?

I clear out a small old notebook which I thought there wrote an autograph of Ms 戴, one of my junior high school teachers. In the beginning that page seemed to have been missing, but in the end I find it out. The four Chinese characters, '奇动偶定'.

The following video was taken off the Sanya beach before I flew back to Chongqing on 30th March. On my flight home I was terribly terrified by the misleading information spoken in that weak English by a stewardess. Although the Chinese announcement firstly made was common, the English one misled me into thinking that the control of the plane had 'some problem'. And I thought the crash was inevitable. For the first time in my flesh I came to know the feeling of Dostoevsky and Kim Tae-jung when they were at the edge of death. I could only pray sincerely, with Bible under my hands.(The passenger next to me must feel strange seeing my behaviour.) The moment the plane landed 'safely', I could not help feeling like Dostoevsky when he was pardoned before the very moment he was to be shot dead. And that was the direct reason why on 5th April I went into the church for the first time in my life. By the way, today is 'Good Friday'.

Sonnet 75 by Edmund Spenser

One day I wrote her name upon the strand,

But came the waves and washed it away:

Agayne I wrote it with a second hand,

But came the tyde, and made my paynes his pray.

'Vayne man,' sayd she, 'that doest in vaine assay,

A mortal thing so to imortalise,

For I my selve shall lyke to this decay,

And eek my name bee wyped out lykewise.'

'Not so,' quod I, 'let baser things devise,

To dy in dust, but you shall live by fame:

My verse your vertues rare shall eternise,

And in the heavens wryte your glorious name.

Where whenas death shall all the world subdew,

Our love shall live, and later life renew.'